I think I need to punish myself. I have been too lazy during those days, and now I found myself plunge deeply into a huge work load. I should have finished them for weeks. I always complain that I am too busy, but in fact, deep down inside I know for sure that I only waste my time on some stupid stuffs.
I have to change. And to do this, I have to face all the difficulties, and suffer from all possible hard work and boredom.
For the best is only bought at great pain, I bring myself some pains to feel how real this life could be.